Day 37 of 60lbs

I started taking a supplement called L-Glutamine.
I have talked a few times to a trainer at the gym and she sells it. I got suckered into it a little... but after all I did ask what her "pink" drink was, so I kind of brought it upon myself. It is black cherry and tastes sour and is gritty. I don't know how I am going to get through 60 servings of this stuff.
But suppposedly it is AMAZ-A-Zing... so we'll see.
I love this trainer. Her name is Cher. She is SUPER in-your-face like "yah" (did you feel the valley girl, head shaking, big open mouth with super blonde ponytail head bobbing when you just said "yah?" .. cause that is how she does it)
She is funny. She is also REALLY intense. SHE could be my Jillian in Charleston. Hmmmm?
I don't feel like I NEED a trainer, yet, but if I do decide to get one... I am pretty sure it will be her.
I am talking nice today. My body feels good.
BL is on tonight... Whoo hoo! I love it.

Day 36 of 60lbs

I did weigh in on Thursday.

I was down
8 lbs
total for the 1st month.

Although that is a feat in itself, it is not quite the 10 that I need to make the goal of 10 pounds a month for 60 in 6. I am a little bummed. I totally regressed these last few days. I was feeling pretty down and defeated and I ate Oreo's, and some other stuff.
Then I got a call from my former lovely neighbor Mary.
She reminded me to
"talk nice to your body."

I am not talking nice to my body, and I am certainly not thinking good thoughts about my body. I am going to change that. I know that the power of positive thinking WILL manifest whatever I want.

I KNOW this, I believe this, I am witness to this in my life.

My self-image has always been negative.
At 10 years old I have very vivid memories of thinking "my thighs are huge"
I believed it, and I thought others did as well.
I went through some challenges in my freshman year of High School. I was borderline anorexic. I harbored many emotions that were swirling around me constantly. Things and emotions that some people should not have to endure in their lifetime, let alone while in crucial teenage years. I was scared, and I deserved validation for my endurance. It really never came, and so I turned to a place where I could control something- food.
Luckily the anorexia passed without any repercussions, but the desire for an "ideal" body image remained so devastatingly skewed.
I am still in that place of a skewed body image. I know that. I accept that. And I am going to change that. But I am changing that in a way that is healthy and real.
I am not after a celebrity body image. I am after Wholeness.- like "Remembering Wholeness"
I deserve the things that I desire as long as they are in line with what is good and my intentions are pure.
My intentions are pure here and I desire a healthy body and an even healthier body image.
There are days when it is really hard. There are days when I feel like I am on a high because I am so proud of myself. I wish those days came much more frequently. And I know that in time they will and I will be able to leave these negative thoughts in a very distant past.

I am going to work on
"talking nice"

My body deserves that. My energy deserves that. My family deserves that.

So here is to talking nice and re-adjusting my thoughts.

Happy Monday.

Day 31 of 60lbs

I like to mix it up a little bit at the gym with my cardio sometimes.
So, today I did 20 mins on the treadmill, with various inclines and mixed running and walking. I like to side-step for a few mins on each side too, for agility. I sometimes walk backwards which makes my thighs really burn and I like it.
After the treadmill I went over to the upright bike for 20 more mins. The gym just got new bikes and I LOVE THEM. The are super comfy and have a thousand programs and a small built in fan that shoots right on your face!
So awesome.

1 more thing... I went to the DMV today.
GROSS.
and nobody knows what they are doing.!
WHY????

Since I haven't posted very many pictures lately... I thought my blog needed some spice, and some sugar. So here are some lovely valentine things.

Enjoy.

**Images taken from flickr. dana from made. such pretty things. carpe diem. and the purl bee.

Day 30 of 60lbs

My legs are starting to take a nice shape... atleast one that is different than what I have been used to looking at in the 10 foot mirrors at the gym. So to me that is "nice."

I broke down at the grocery store last night. I bought some "Healthy Choice" frozen meals.
They were on sale and only 380 cals each. I couldn't resist the margherita chicken in angel hair pasta with basalmic sauce. The picture looks delicious. I will give an update soon!
I figure at least it is something different and since Superman is working nights this month I am usually not in the mood to make a full dinner.... so, I am going to take a whirl with the frozen variety.

Warmer days are hopefully upon us soon! Lucy is beginning to get cabin fever and in turn driving me a little bonkers. Luckily we have been able to play with friends the last few days!
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My sewing machine is calling to me!
I need a fix
{REAL}
bad.

Day 29 of 60lbs

The weekend was good.

Simple.

I didn't quite make it to organizing everything... but as Tiffany said... make a list and tackle one thing at a time. Thanks Tiffany! I will take your advice.
I did however go crazy on the V-day clippies!

8 people
will be receiving packages this week... not including the 2 local lovlies that we have already hand delivered to!

Snow fell upon us heavily Friday night... which made for a day full of pajamas, cleaning and crafting ALL day!
Superman did in fact have to work... and luckily worked his super powers and made it home Saturday night.... Oh thank goodness!

After working out this morning -which I talked to Cindy during my entire cardio session and it was so nice and made the time FLY by!- I got home and checked the mail.
The jury duty heavens were looking down upon me and EXCUSED me from the 8 week trial!
-Oh the joys of motherhood sure do come in handy sometimes!

The sun was shining extra shiny today. I could barely see the car in front of me while I was running some errands. It was so beautiful.

I am going to do my weigh in this week on Thursday since that will mark the end of Month 1.

The downside is that I am retaining a little extra water this week- thank you "womanhood"
Oh well.. It all evens out in the end right!?!

Off to bed I go...
and Mr. Sunshine, please come out again tomorrow, please.

Day 26 of 60lbs

I am getting a little anxious about losing the 3.8lbs in the next 6 days.

It is times like these when I need help on balancing my food intake with appropriate calories and nutritional value.

I know it is possible to lose the weight... people on BL do it all the time, although I know I don't have as much to lose as some of the contestants, I still know it is possible.

I am still nursing which throws another curve ball to the mix.

There is a trainer at the gym that is awesome.

I really want her to train me.

I would obey her.
{ I promise.}

But then I just read my quote of the day calendar and it says,

"I was always looking outside myself for strength and confidence, but it comes from within. It is there all the time." -Anna Frued

Hmph....

I watched the Suns game highlights on ESPN at the gym this morning and it was nice to see the win last night. We were lucky enough to get it broadcast out on the east coast. I was texting my dad throughout the game. I sent a text that said, " mess up so I can see you on T.V."
He text back with " love you guys."
Well, it was worth a shot right?
( my dad does the score board and/or the 24 second shot clock for all the Suns games)
Pretty cool to see your dad on T.V sometimes.

A huge snowstorm is coming tonight... I REALLY hope it snows more than 5 inches... because then Superman wont have to fly tomorrow morning! I really don't like this cold weather, but I guess it could have some benefits.


I am going to organize the house today.
I just started laughing after typing that sentence. But really I am going to try.
And then I am going to get out my sewing machine and GO. GO. GO.
I whipped up some cute little V-Day hair clippies that I am sending to some lovely people.
Infact... if you want one, and you will cause they are TO DIE FOR CUTE! Then leave me a little comment and I am going to pick one lucky person to send a little valentine to!
Who knows... maybe even 2 peeps!

Day 24 of 60lbs

We returned safely from Charlotte!

We had so much fun with the Lenzi's!

Lucy and Katelyn are getting better... although I am pretty sure we had some serious PMS going on with the dolls for a day or 2!

Makes for some real interesting situations!

I indulged while on mini-vaca.

We ate at Melting Pot... it was DELICIOUS,

just how I last remembered it.

We ate cinnamon rolls and frozen yogurt at IKEA
and I bought some new pillow covers for our couch pillows.

Oh, and we had Chinese... I have been craving it, and superman doesn't like it unless it is from Panda Express... and let's face it, that resembles NOTHING like chinese!

I was certain that I had blown my caloric intake all but 1 day....

But I was aware of my choices.

I hopped right back into things when I returned home and the scale didn't hate me that much.

I am
DOWN
1.2 lbs

Not too bad considering my indulgent ways!?!

I still have some work to do to catch up... I have 3.8 lbs to lose before the 4th of February- basically in 7 days to stay right on course.

The gym felt good after having 5 days off.
It is getting easier in many ways, harder in others.

The poll ended while I was in CLT.... so here you go.

BEfoRE

This is me being REal! So easy on the criticism....
this is taking alot of courage.