Thursday, February 18, 2010

Day 46 of 60lbs

The list was a success. 2 days in a row successful.

Then today came.
I was tired when I awoke.

I tried making it go away.

Then I got to the gym and was about to begin my warm-up on the treadmill, Crap! My purple i-pod is out of juice.

*** At that very moment it was so clear to me, "you have a choice to let this get to you, or not"... unfortunately, as much as I tried swimming out of the tide pool of "i am going to be okay without my music," it sucked me right in.

And then subsequently the rest of my day has suffered.
But not without a visit to the DMV-aka -deathville.

It took all my conscious to withhold the negativity in my brain not forming into words to the woman behind that cage. - you know they have those cages for a reason I am sure. I AM SURE.

I came home with a headache.

I wanted to take a nap, but the kids are on opposite nap schedules and when Lucy woke up Peter I lost my patience with her. I then apologized.

These non-sunny days are beginning to ware on me.

Oh, and I am NOT down any weight from last week.
Today I am feeling grim, and I want to throw in the towel.
If I am going to reach my goal, I have some serious catching up to do. I need to re-track my thoughts and power of positive-ness.

I am going back to the gym tonight... I need another 45min cardio buzz.
Maybe that will make it all better?

Tomorrow Tomorrow I'll be better tomorrow it's only a day away!


Travis said...

Keep after it... Hopefully verbalizing your frustrations in your blog helps you shed the bad stuff... ;)